I often hear (and have even SAID) the phrase “God will never give us more than we can handle”.
but I don’t think God GIVES us the suffering. I believe it is a consequence of living on this earth but not that God GIVES different measures of suffering to different folks – and based on WHAT?!
But on the other hand – while I believe in miracles and believe that God could perform a miracle and heal Brian – I don’t EXPECT him to, in the sense that I feel he SHOULD. But SHOULD I expect him to? Is it not happening because I am not EXPECTING it? And if I expect it and it doesn’t happen…THEN what?
but if I don’t expect a miracle or even PRAY for one – what SHOULD I pray for?! Have I let the fact that I am not “expecting” a miracle keep me from regular conversation with Christ?
it feels strange to continually pray for miracles that don’t happen. But maybe they ARE happening. The first infection Brian got after the initial surgery to remove the cancerous tumor COULD have been a miracle, or at least a BLESSING because if it hadn’t happened we wouldn’t have known that his artery was exposed and he could have been in a very serious life or death situation at any time.
Seeing Brian almost continually in pain just seems so unfair and yet I know this life isn’t about fairness. Every couple of nights I mind myself holding him a little too tightly and praying, begging God to take away just a LITTLE of the pain he is feeling. Then Brian will say it feels better and I wonder…does it REALLY or is he saying that to ease my fears? Maybe these are little miracles, little answers to prayers…maybe not.
I look to God to give us the strength to get thru this and that is what that phrase means to ME.
Here’s how I might say it…at least today –
Whatever circumstances we are in – God is there to BE our strength (more than even GIVING us strength…he wants to BE our strength). The world will OFTEN give us more than we can handle…God is ALWAYS there to be our strength. We are not expected to be strong enough to handle ANYTHING ON OUR OWN.